Planting Roots, Growing Wings

The Last (and Best) Pinterest Dinner of the Week

2012-02-15T17:29:00.000-06:00

Chicken Enchilada Pasta
Ever since I saw the beautiful picture on Pinterest, I knew this recipe was for me. A combination of two of my favorite things, this concoction lived up to the hype. I used a rotisserie chicken and I didn't have enough sour cream left, so I used cream cheese. I'm sure this made it even more delectable.

So, while I thoroughly enjoyed the taste, I could also feel my pants get increasingly tighter as I ate. I love this recipe so much, though, that I will attempt it with some lower fat ingredients.

Add this one to your grocery list, ya'll. It's a winner!

A Whole Mess of Pinterest Dinners (#6,7,8)

2012-02-14T16:06:00.000-06:00

I've been doing a whole lotta cooking, but not a whole lotta writing.

We had a great soup on Saturday - Spinach, Tomato, Orzo Soup...except Meijer was out of orzo. So, I went with alphabet noodles. I thought maybe Maddie would not notice the spinach as much if she was trying to spell her name with noodles.

Sunday, I had my parents and sister over to sample the Balsamic Pot Roast. I took no pictures of it because it was a SUNDAY and I was so busy all day - what was I thinking?!? It was good, but I don't think it was any better than any other pot roast. Maddie made a cake for dessert. The Cherry Vanilla Pudding Poke Cake was yummy!

Monday was a bust because my cat ate the meat that was defrosting on the counter, so I had to go to a plan B meal. Yes, a cat ate 1/4 pound of ground beef from off the counter. After he ate through the wrapping. I have a strange cat.

And tonight is Valentine's dinner. My valentine loves brussels sprouts, but I only make them on special occasions because, seriously, who loves brussels sprouts? Gross. I've tried many a brussels sprout recipe and I only like them when I can make them stop tasting like brussels sprouts.
Tonight is a pasta with creamy brussels sprout and mushroom sauce. Alongside garlic bread. And there is a pineapple upside-down cake in the oven. Man, I'm tired.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Pinterest Dinner #5: (NOT) Chicken Gyros

2012-02-09T18:52:00.000-06:00

Well, we've finally found a stinker. This recipe was not good. My hubby thought it was OK, the kids wouldn't touch it.

Though it claims to be a gyro, it lies. It is really just chicken soaked in tzatziki sauce, cooked, then stuffed in a pita and topped with more tzatziki sauce. There was raw garlic in the sauce and it totally made me have a very upset tummy (hence the lateness of this post). So, therefore I officially do not recommend this recipe.

On a happier note, I have proclaimed Thursdays to be leftover night. So, I used some of the shredded pork from earlier in the week and made some open faced sandwiches. I grilled up the bread, piled on the pork, added some shredded cheese and put it under the broiler for about 5 minutes.

Yeah, it was super good.
Tomorrow is take out night since it is FRIDAY - thank goodness. A day off from the kitchen and well-deserved after this Pinterest craziness.
Here is the recipe if you would like to torture yourself with (NOT) Chicken Gyros

Pinterest Dinner #4: Turkey Stuffed Peppers + Dessert!

2012-02-07T20:09:00.000-06:00

Tonight's dinner was YUMMY! It took me a while to get used to ground turkey, but in the right dishes it is really great. This is one of those dishes.

I'm sauteing up some onions, garlic and parsley. The recipe suggested cilantro if you like it. I do like it, but rejected that suggestion. I'm just that kind of girl.

I used red bell peppers and I left the stems on cuz it's pretty.

So you add some cooked rice to the turkey/onion/garlic mixture along with some tomato sauce and chicken stock and then...you guessed it...stuff the peppers. I topped them with some cheese too.

Add a spinach salad and you've got a great, healthy meal. Apparently, these are great if you do Weight Watchers. I think it said 4 or 5 points for one of these. I had plenty of leftover stuffing and could have easily made 2 more full peppers, if I had them.

As an added bonus...DESSERT! Maddie did help with the dessert, but I didn't take her picture this time. It's called Nutella Mousse Brownie Pie. Seriously, you pour a boxed brownie mix into a pie crust and bake it (GENIUS) and then top it with this Nutella/cream cheese/whipped cream concoction. It was amazing. I don't believe you want to know how many WW points that would be.

Thank you to my good friend, Jessie, for making this dessert possible. Apparently, there is some Nutella conspiracy going on in Battle Creek as EVERY store I went to was completely out. She's a great friend for letting me raid her cupboard.

Links to the recipes: Turkey Stuffed Peppers and Nutella Mousse Brownie Pie
Eat up, y'all! Tomorrow night is Chicken Gyros!

Pinterest Dinner #3: Ranch Crockpot Porkchops

2012-02-06T19:19:00.000-06:00

Right off the bat I'm going to go ahead and diverge from the recipe. Pork chops were not on sale and, therefore, almost $8.00 to get 4 descent sized, normal cut chops. Pork LOIN, however, was on sale and I got this big old piece for $8.40.

So, since I was winging it, just FYI, I seared it on both sides for just a couple of minutes after sprinkling it with salt, pepper, and (what else) magic Bavarian Inn seasoning. Have I mentioned about the magic BI seasoning before?

OK, get ready because there are a lot of ingredients now:

HA! Gotcha. Just a packet of ranch and a can of cream of chicken. The recipe didn't say, but take my advice and mix these two together BEFORE throwing into the crockpot. It was kinda messy there for a minute. Monday is my day off, so crockpot works great since I don't have to rush around in the morning. I let it go on low for 6 hours and then it looked like this:

No, that's not it. That's my pretty kitty-Jack laying in the sun.

Here is the real deal:

Yeah, it looks kinda gross, but trust me it gets better. I shredded it up with a fork. The recipe suggested serving with mashed potatoes. It gave instructions for said potatoes, but I have to say that I already have a pretty great rhythm with mashed potatoes. Maddie helped mash them (SEE, Sunday School friends, I'm TRYING!!)

The whole family loved it! This one is a winner, winner chicken dinner....uh, PORK dinner!

Here is the link to the recipe. You can use pork CHOPS if you must. It's at Real Mom Kitchen.

Pinterest Dinner #2: Stovetop Macaroni and Cheese

2012-02-05T17:03:00.001-06:00

OK, I realize I'm not impressing anyone with these recipe choices so far. Sundays, though, have to be easy. It's a wonder I cook on Sundays at all, really, and I try to avoid it if I can.

I love macaroni and cheese and I don't mean the homemade kind. I love the good old Kraft in a box. The kind with the powder cheese. I always thought my aunt, Loretta, was so fancy because she had the kind with the creamy cheese that you just mix in. This recipe is more in the vein of the Velveeta style .

In an effort to be more aware of my parenting choices (thanks to our current Sunday School class), I asked Maddie to help me with this recipe. It is EXTREMELY hard for me to let Maddie help in her own way. So, I am also having a lesson in patience.

We grated some American cheese.

More grating.

Meanwhile, I started the water to boil for the pasta. I used whole wheat elbow mac. I'm not a big fan of the whole wheat pasta, but when it is slathered in cheese, I can tolerate it.

I ALWAYS forget to turn the burner down after I put the pasta in. Every time. So, here is the water boiling over. I think my stove must roll its eyes every time it happens. Mean-old, judgmental stove.

So drain the pasta (saving some water) and add in the cheese, some Greek yogurt, some pasta water, and peas. I really liked the tang that the yogurt gave it and it was super creamy. Although, in retrospect, I should have added some magical Bavarian Inn seasoning. It needed a little something and when something needs a little something it's always the magical Bavarian Inn seasoning. Unless it's dessert.

I know, how hobo are the mandarin oranges? It's SUNDAY, people. It's a day of rest. I'm not gonna cook any fancy meals today. God said to take a break and I'm just following the rules.

Here is the link for the recipe. The Foodie Bride has some other great recipes, so check some more of them out while you're there!

Pinterest Dinner #1: Ham & Beans with Cornbread

2012-02-04T19:13:00.000-06:00

Did I really need a recipe for this? No. It's just that I never think about ham and beans. But, now I have Pinterest. Ahhhh, Pinterest. An escape from the drama of Facebook and a bountiful supply of inspiration for my lazy-sitting in front of the laptop way past my bedtime-self.

Here's the food.

Oh, did I mention it's a crockpot recipe? Yay! So, since today was low-key, I started this up about 9:00 a.m. and dinner made itself until about 5:00 p.m. Above is dried Great Northern beans. I know you can get the ones in a jar, but I kinda like doing this better.

Now the ham. I diced up a little ham. I was not in the market to get a $17 bone-in ham hock this week, but this was great.

The recipe from Pinterest said to add 2 teaspoons of onion powder. I had none. So, I reached for my trusty Bavarian Inn All-Purpose Seasoning. It does amazing things to all food. Go to Frankenmuth and buy some. Now.

Now wait 8 hours (on low). I went to Hobby Lobby, took the kids out for lunch, put baby down for nap, wasted time on Pinterest (how did I waste the ENTIRE nap time on Pinterest??), and thought about sewing.

The Pinterest recipe suggested making cornbread to go with it. And who am I to argue with Pinterest?

Here is our dinner. It was delicious! Thank you, Pinterst, for reminding me how easy ham and beans are to make!

Opening My Eyes and Unplugging My Ears

2011-08-19T08:52:00.000-05:00

Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves,

for the rights of all who are destitute.
Speak up and judge fairly;
defend the rights of the poor and needy. Proverbs 31:8-10

While reading a book many months ago, one short phrase made me pause. It stuck in my brain and nagged and nagged at me until I had to consider it seriously. I knew that acknowledging and considering this idea would mean some changes, changes I was not necessarily excited to make. I knew that it would mean opening my eyes and taking my fingers out of my ears – it would mean inconvenience, discomfort, and extra work.

“Reject anything that breeds the oppression of others.”

About the same time, I started to become more aware of the problem of human trafficking through a friend and her employer, Better Way Imports. Susie and Better Way made an impact on me, not only through the opportunity to learn about trafficking and do something about it, but through the idea that the items my dollars buy MATTER. Through Better Way, I purchased bags and jewelry made by women who have escaped a life of slavery and are making a new life. That is a purchase that truly matters and makes a difference. The experiences I have had with Better Way highlighted the OPPOSITE of the phrase that continued to swirl around in my head. Here was something that was breeding liberation!

“Reject anything that breeds the oppression of others.”

As I got excited about supporting Better Way and using the products I could really feel good about owning, it forced me to consider other items I owned and purchased. I began researching what my dollars were supporting.

Let me tell you…there is a lot of injustice and oppression in the world.

As my circumstances allow, I hope to make many changes. I’ve already made a permanent change in the kind of coffee and chocolate I buy, but I needed to make a bigger commitment, something that would really stretch my comfort zone and make me STOP and THINK about what I am purchasing.

As of today, I am committing to abstain from purchasing new clothing for myself for 6 months. I love to get a great deal on clothes. Let’s face it, our money needs to go further these days and getting a pair of PJ’s from Walmart for $5 seems frugal, even responsible. Sadly, if something seems like an unbelievable deal…it’s probably a safe bet that it “breeds oppression.” There are many retailers that are inhumanely irresponsible in their use of sweatshop suppliers from third world countries. Retailers that I once loved to shop with. Americans would never stand for such treatment or working conditions. We have regulations, laws, and unions that protect the worker’s rights. But when the problem is so far away, so far from our frame of reference, we just can’t believe that it’s THAT bad.

I encourage you to do your own research (some good reading references are included at the end). I’ve experienced two kinds of reactions to this discussion so far: encouragement and support OR very defensive. I’ve heard lots of arguments, some with valid points, but for me it always comes back the fact that human beings are being oppressed so that I can buy $5 pajamas. As one author said, “One thing I’ve come to believe regarding slavery and all of its attached and related subjects is that it depends far less upon economics and far more upon how we think and view other people than anything else.”

So, for me, that means trying out this pledge, making informed decisions about what I buy and who I buy it from, supporting responsible companies and buying LOCAL whenever possible.

I, Beki, pledge that I shall abstain from the purchase of “new” manufactured items of clothing for 6 months. I shall refashion, renovate, and recycle pre-loved items for myself for the term of my contract. I pledge that I shall create and craft items of clothing for myself with my own hands in fabric, yarn, or other medium for the term of my contract. I am not (yet) applying these rules to my children and items excluded from the pledge include undergarments, shoes, and socks, though I will seek to purchase those items from responsible companies.

I will chronicle some of my experiences with this here. I’ve discovered already that thrifting is a lot of fun! I’ve found great items in practically new condition. I’m getting serious about improving my sewing skills and excited about making my own clothes. My pledge will certainly not make a big difference, but my prayer is that it might change me internally and possibly influence others to join me in opening our eyes and unplugging our ears.

To make an informed decision, try: http://www.free2work.org/companies?page=2

Other resources: http://www.johnrobbins.info/blog/is-there-slavery-in-your-chocolate

http://www.interpol.int/public/News/2009/CotedIvoire20090803.asp

www.betterwayimports.com

http://fairtradefederation.org

Other bloggers joining in: http://jessies-confessions.blogspot.com and www.periwinklepeacock.blogspot.com

Books:

Nobodies: Modern American Slave labor and the Dark Side of the New Global Economy by John Bowe

Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster

Sex Trafficking: Inside the Business of Modern Slavery by Siddharth Kara

Slaves to Fashion: Poverty and Abuse in the New Sweatshops by Robert Ross

Clean Clothes: A Global Movement to End Sweatshops by Liesbeth Sluiter

Old Friends

2011-08-01T07:49:00.000-05:00

There’s something comforting in having old friends. They have known me at my best and at my worst, through dorky bangs and questionable fashion choices, as a child and an adult. We have celebrated and mourned together, supported and encouraged, and even infuriated one another over the course of our friendships. It’s easy to forget who I used to be during the ins and outs of everyday life. But, when I am with these girls I remember a little of my former self – the care-free days, where my biggest worries were getting along with my volleyball coach or getting a passing grade in Physics. I get to act a little more silly, laugh out loud a little bit more (OK, a lot more), and just enjoy being with my old friends who have loved me through so many stages of life. So, here is a tribute to you, girls:

Sara – She’s always the one that is prepared and when there is a problem or kink in the plans, you can count on her to step in and make sure things get done (and done right). She is kind and caring, but please do not cross her or try to cut her in line waiting for a trolley. She WILL break a foot off if necessary. Sara is frequently the voice of reason and is fiercely loyal to her friends.

Molly – Always the one to smooth over awkward situations, Molly is liked by everyone who meets her. She has the gift of making small talk with complete strangers (it truly is a gift!) and has a comforting nature that puts people at ease. She is a great listener and always remembers special details that others would pass over. Molly is very trustworthy, although not around boating mechanisms, and you can always count on her for a laugh.

Amber – If there is anyone who helps me set aside my worries and have fun, it is definitely this girl. Amber is exceptionally great at making us laugh. While she is always the life of the party, don’t be fooled – she has her serious/no nonsense side, especially when an injustice has occurred! She is quick to step in and defend others and right wrongs with determination. She is a hard worker and a great road trip companion if snacks do not include beef jerky.

Katie – Everyone can hold their own, but only Katie comes close to my level of sarcasm. She has a sharp wit, but a soft spirit. Katie can be trusted with any secret and is a very loyal friend. She can seem quiet to some, but is not afraid to speak her mind when she is moved to (and speak it pretty loudly). She’s usually the one to question the status quo and is always an asset in board game competitions (but only if they don’t go past 10pm).

Annie – Annie can tell a story like no one else. Animated and funny, Annie can make any story hilarious. Definitely the coolest of us (she does have a nose piercing, after all), she is not one to flaunt it. Annie is humble and considerate, but is not afraid to ‘work it’ when given the opportunity. Her laugh is contagious and she is an excellent encourager. She can always be counted on to pull out a great dance move when warranted.

I have other old friends, of course, but I most often get to be with these 5. They are all smart, funny, talented women who once played marbles with me by the swings or 4square on the playground or jump rope at recess. They could all certainly tell you an embarrassing story about me, but probably won’t (probably). They each have made getting through growing up a bit easier for me and have definitely helped me laugh through it all. Thanks, girls, for 20-something years of friendship. Here’s to 20-something more.

Rustica

2011-01-26T08:08:00.005-06:00

For my birthday last month, I knew that what I wanted most was a foodie experience. With a bit of research I discovered a restaurant in Kalamazoo that I hadn't heard of before - Rustica. They describe their food as rustic European cuisine.
This restaurant was beautiful and exciting the minute we walked in the door. We did call ahead for a reservation and I'm glad we did - it was packed by 6:00. I would say it is a bit upscale - it seemed like we were surrounded by the theater crowd.

THE FOOD:
We decided to be adventurous and order the mussels as an appetizer. Neither Mike or I had ever had mussels before and it seemed like a popular appetizer - lots of tables had the steaming pot of mussels in front of them. We had a very cool table right next to the open kitchen, so I watched our mussels come together right in front of me. Served with a crusty bread, these were so delicious and flavorful. Well cooked, not fishy tasting at all - with such a lovely white wine sauce.

Mike ordered the handmade gnocchi with sweet potatoes and apples for dinner. It is served with a blue cheese cream sauce that made this dish incredibly rich. The taste had that strong bite of blue cheese, but it married so well with the soft flavors of the sauteed apples and sweet potatoes. Though it was delicious, it was almost too rich and Mike actually did not finish it. Even after 3 or 4 bites, the richness and heaviness of the cream sauce settles in and fills you up fast. A great dish overall, but be prepared to be full.

I ordered the special of the night (this is my favorite thing to do at a new restaurant rather than order off of the standard menu). It was a grilled sturgeon served over a 3 bean ragout. I've since learned more about sturgeon, a Great Lakes fish that is fairly rare. It is more often used for it's roe and served as caviar. It's meat, however, is also very good. My fish was grilled perfectly and reminded me more of a steak than a fish. Sturgeon is very hearty and dense - not fishy at all. The star of this dish, though, was the ragout. There was so much flavor packed into this sauce - and it paired so well with the medley of beans.

Dessert was almost a downer after such a spectacular dinner. I ordered tiramisu, which I have to say was quite average. It tasted good, but wasn't really anything special. Mike's dessert, Rustica bread pudding, was amazing. Really, just so dense and creamy, packed with raisins and nuts with a really strong spice mix - cloves, cinnamon, nutmeg...it was really an excellent bread pudding.

This in not an everyday kind of restaurant and it is certainly not kid-friendly. 1 shared appetizer, dinner, dessert, and drinks probably got us up to around $85. This is special-occasion to be sure. The experience, though, was worth every penny. The restaurant and food were both beautiful and special.

www.rusticakzoo.com

ABBA said it best...

2010-09-09T07:17:00.006-05:00

"Schoolbag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning, waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile...

I watch her go with a surge of that well-known sadness and I have to sit down for a while. The feeling that I'm losing her forever, and without really entering her world. I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter, that funny little girl."

Slipping through my fingers all the time, I try to capture every minute, the feeling in it, slipping though my fingers all the time. Do I really see what's in her mind, each time I think I'm close to knowing, she keeps on growing, slipping through my fingers all the time."
Copyright Union Songs AB; EMI Waterford Music Inc.

Preschool, her first big step...

She's confident, more so than I ever was. She's so grown up, but she's still a little girl.
It seems like every once in a while she turns into a new person. It was the same when she was a baby. Overnight she would look bigger or seem to talk more clearly or start to feed herself. I used to know her better - what her cries meant, what she was afraid of...

Now there is a new Madelyn - a Madelyn with a whole new world that I am not really a part of. School and teachers, bullies and friends, scary and exciting things that I won't be there to protect her from or encourage her to try. I don't know this new Madelyn well (yet). She's only just starting to know herself.

It's hard to appreciate how little time we have with her when she's whining and we're rushing to get ready in the morning or when I've been up with the baby 4 times or when I feel pulled in a thousand directions...

but thank goodness for ABBA, who reminds me to "...be glad whenever I can share her laughter, that funny little girl..."

A Mother of 2

2010-07-27T14:25:00.004-05:00

Well, at least we're not outnumbered yet. Wait, I didn't mean to say "yet" and give you the impression that we'll be having any more kids. This is it, 1 girl and 1 boy. It's like the perfect nuclear family, right?

But now I'm adjusting to seeing myself as a mother of 2. Before Jack our family unit was little more unconventional. We could easily find a babysitter for 1 cute little girl. We could comfortably fit into our Kia Spectra with all of our luggage in tow. We all had our own bedroom.

Now our family unit could easily justify a mini van (eek!). No one would fault me if I started wearing "mom jeans" (AHH!). And common sense tells me it's time to trade in my cute 4-inch heels for some sensible shoes to run around with the kids in (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!).

OK, well maybe my husband would object to the "mom jeans."

I don't want 2 kids to mean that life as I know it is over, as so many have lovingly suggested. We sacrifice for our children, yes, but not at the cost of who we are.

So, I'm accepting it - I'm a mother of 2. And if someday I find myself saying..."but those minivans are so spacious..." , then so be it.

And if someday you spot me at the grocery store in my "mom jeans" and a sensible pair of loafers -

-then please give me a good knock upside the head and get me some retail therapy stat because my kids have driven me insane. I love my beautiful children dearly, but I will never give up my shoes.

Traverse City - A Food Diary

2010-04-24T18:27:00.005-05:00

Last weekend, Mike and I took a "Last Hurrah Before the Baby Getaway" to Traverse City. We have both been to TC before, but this time really took a lot of time planning and researching before embarking on our Northern Michigan adventure. I was on a quest to put on my fake food critic hat and eat at some awesome restaurants and Mike was on a mission to visit/taste/collect glasses from Michigan breweries.

Our first stop on our own personal foodie tour satisfied both our objectives. We visited The Jolly Pumpkin Brew Pub on Old Mission Peninsula Friday night for dinner after checking in at the hotel. The drive up OMP was beautiful! We passed Chateau Grand Traverse and spotted some early cherry blossoms, all while getting a spectacular view of the water. The pub was very warm and welcoming - clean, family-friendly, and woodsy. Our waitress was attentive and friendly, but it was the food and beer that definitely stood out. Well, I can't personally tell you about the beer, but I hear it was especially unique. They have a special (which is always available) - 1 artisan pizza with a pint of beer for $10. Considering the cost of this beer, this is an excellent deal. They were even kind enough to give me the deal too - and let hubby have my beer. The pizzas were just amazing. Mine, shortrib pizza with a sweet potato sauce, was awesome. Mike had the wild mushroom and was equally impressed. They were rather large for an individual pizza and the flavor combinations were really surprising and DELICIOUS! This restaurant was a 10 all around for us and Old Mission Peninsula is a spot we will definitely spend more time at the next trip up to TC.

In the morning, we drove up to Suttons Bay where we were specifically going to visit Tandem Ciders and Black Star Farms. Both had beverages to taste, but at Black Star they made me especially happy since they cracked open a sparkling juice for me to taste. We did a bit of shopping at the local stores, but were most impressed with the 45th Parallel Cafe. Suttons Bay is apparently famous for being exactly half way between the Equator and the North Pole, thus the name of the cafe. Their food looked delicious (we saved by eating free hotel breakfast), BUT they also run a small candy shop where they make their own fudge, truffles, and other sweets. We brought home some of the cherry walnut fudge (with local cherries, of course). I have never had better fudge - and I have sampled A LOT of fudge. Creamy, FULL of cherries and walnuts all the way through, and a steal for $13/pound.

For lunch we headed back to downtown TC to visit The Cook's House. Owned and operated by a classically trained chef out of Las Vegas, this restaurant is TINY. 7 tables, right on top of each other, were all full when we arrived. We waited literally in the doorway for 15 minutes for one of the tables to clear out. This restaurant is not for the meat and potatoes kind of person. All the options are unconventional - expect a foodie experience here. My walleye sandwich with pickled vegetables was prepared perfectly, but not a sandwich I would order again. It was good, but not in the sense that it was finger-lickin or overly satisfying - it was a culinary experience. Unique flavors with fresh, high-quality ingredients, prepared by a world-class chef. Mike's pulled pork sandwich was, according to him, the best sandwich he had ever eaten. The price was...expected. about $10/plate for lunch. If you love the foodie experience, go here. If you like to know what to expect and eat "normal" food, probably best to skip it. Well, if you're clostrophobic you should proabably avoid it too - oh and no kids for sure.

Still hungry after my interesting sandwich, we decided to sample some pie at the Grand Traverse Pie Company. All yum. Over the course of the weekend I sampled 3 pieces of pie from this establishment and all 3 were amazing. I had peach blackberry crumble, chocolate cream, and cherry peach crumble (not all at once, of course!). Served alongside some local Moomers ice cream, this is a treat you cannot pass up while you're in Traverse City. A (generous) slice and a scoop of ice cream will cost you $4 - totally worth it.

Full of pie and ice cream, I was off for my pedicure. I had scheduled this in advance through some of my research. Pavlova Salon & Spa was super, super nice. The pedicurist was great, served me hot tea and was especially attentive to my poorly circulating pregnant legs. It's a splurge to be sure, but if you ever have the chance to get a spa pedicure DO NOT pass it up!

There was much debate about what to do for our final dinner in Traverse City. Trattoria Stella was on top of my list, but we just weren't sure about their menu selections. We finally decided to drive out to the Grand Traverse Resort and Spa to dine at their Aerie Restaurant & Lounge. Biggest seller on this place is the view. The restaurant is on the 16th floor of this massive resort and every table has a stunning view of the bay. The floor to ceiling windows showcase Michigan beauty at it's finest. We were fortunate enough to catch the sunset as we ate! Lucky for us, the food was phenomenal too. I ordered the chef's heirloom beet salad to start - best salad I have ever eaten, hands down. And it was so pretty. For dinner I had the fresh crab topped risotto with lobster cream sauce. Wow - just as decadent as it sounds. Rich and creamy with tons of flaky crab meat over the top. Mike was just as happy with his duck salad served with spaghetti squash and salmon. Beautiful view with beautiful food. This is a little more upscale, but not outrageous. With salads, dinner, and 1 drink we hit about $45.

Our last morning took us to Sleeping Bear Dunes where we took the Pierce Scenic Drive - a beautiful way to see the dunes if you are not up for hiking (and I'm definitely NOT at the moment). We stopped at The Cherry Republic for lots of cherry goodies to take home and found a little hole-in-the-wall restaurant called Boondocks. Just a good burger joint that was comfy and affordable. I was ready to be disappointed, but it was really great. Just what we needed on the way back down the coast.

We were sad to leave Traverse City - the more we visit, the more we come to love Northern Michigan and it's beautiful lakeshore. There is so much to do and see! Living in Michigan can be frustrating at times (snow/economy/government), but it's home and we love it more with each delicious adventure.

The Story of Jack

2009-09-24T23:20:00.003-05:00

This story has been a long time coming...almost a year, in fact. I have two kitties (well, they are really cats) named Jack and Pumpkin. Pumpkin was our first baby adopted from Alley Cat Angels when she was only a few weeks old. She is a very cat-like cat - she likes affection on her terms, she hides when strangers come, and she hates being dirty.

Jack was adopted from our local humane socitey when we decided Pumpkin needed a playmate. He was always a different cat, but I couldn't quite place what it was until I was living alone while Mike was at Basic Training/School. Jack thinks he is a dog. Throughout my 4 months in a scary apartment living alone, Jack became my guard dog. He made rounds every night, checking out all the windows and closets. He greeted me at the door and came to sit with me after work.

Jack has always been my kitty. He always comes when I call. Except for one night last October.

After a busy day, we were settling in for the night when I realized I hadn't see Jack all day. I checked his usual places in the basement, under the bed, even in the crawlspace. No Jack. The search continued outside in the dark - calling, shaking his treats, etc. I came in when it was too dark to look anymore, inconsolable.

Over the next 3 days I called/visited all of the local shelters, placed an ad in the paper and on Craigslist, and made my own LOST poster. On the 4th day I had an especially traumatic experience. Driving back to work from lunch, I spotted a black and white cat on the side of the road, obviously dead. I began shaking uncontrolably as I drove back to check it out, praying all along that this was not my cat. I grabbed a blanket from the back seat, ready to scoop up my little Jack. As I reached for the cat's feet I remember thinking "please, please, please have claws" And he did - my Jack has no front claws. I cried, so grateful that this wasn't my kitty, but also so sad for whoever he belonged to.

Halloween night we passed out candy AND lost posters. The kids in the neighborhood began helping us look for him and as we walked from house to house we heard many people mention that they had seen a cat like ours in the last few days. HOPE! But, still no Jack.

I woke up alone the next morning, both Maddie and Mike were gone for the day. The first thing I did was to go check outside - no Jack. I came back in and started my coffee, but realized I had left the garage door open. I shuffled out to close the door and there he was. Sitting perfectly still in the driveway. He was dirty, thinner...but there he was. He meowed and I ran to scoop him up - he didn't bolt (like a cat), but came running towards me (like a dog). I hugged him and hugged him and hugged him.

I know that cats run away and cats come home all the time. But for me, one very special cat took care of me when I needed him, had an adventure all his own, and came back to take care of me again.

Madison, WI - A Food Journal.

2009-09-19T20:45:00.003-05:00

We recently took our family vacation to Madison, Wisconsin. While we did do a lot of fun activities, I was most excited to be a pretend food critic throughout our trip. Here is the key: A=atmosphere, S=service, T=taste, V=value, Q=quality. Our food journey stats at...

1. Einstein Bagels - OK, it's a chain and I won't put them through the whole song and dance, but they did have excellent coffee. Also, Mike and I had egg white sandwiches on whole wheat wraps. Under 200 calories and really pretty good.

2. Our first day we found our way to the Wisconsin Dells to see what we could see. By chance we walked by an interesting looking place called High Rock Cafe. We all had really unique dishes prepared with wonderfully fresh ingredients. Even Maddie was treated to a fancy juice box and "special" mac and cheese. Some of the highlights included WONDERFUL corn fritters with maple butter, a shrimp wrap w/wasabi and excellent garlic tater tots, and a shrimp and corn tartlet. High Rock is fancy without being pretentious and offers unique and fresh dishes in a beautiful cafe overlooking the main street of Wis Dells.
A=8, S=8, T=9, V=7.5, Q=9 Overall=8.3

3. Ella's Kosher Deli quite a unique experience. The whole restaurant is decorated with vintage/classic toys and they boast a working carousel out in the front (kids can ride with an adult for $1)! The meals, I've decided, are average, but you'll want to stay for dessert. Their "custard=style" ice cream is homemade and they have created some killer desserts with it. Our favorite is the grilled pound cake sundae (you can choose fruit or chocolate topping).
A=7, S=6, T=7, V=6, Q=6 Overall=6.4

4. Our next breakfast came from a recommendation that we were SOOO grateful for. The Sow's Ear, in nearby Verona, is a peaceful little yarn and coffee shop. We all had quiche - all varieties were excellent. Madelyn ended up having the best breakfast with her yogurt/granola parfait. I've never tasted smoother, creamier yogurt and the homemade granola was a perfect complement. After breakfast we were able to browse (and buy a little) the specialty yarns that line the other end of the cafe. The atmosphere was certainly "hooker" friendly, as we saw many people sipping their coffees as they knitted on a sofa or outside in the garden. SUCH a great place to eat and shop! BTW, I got a fabulous angora yarn!!
A=9, S=8, T=9, V=6, Q=8. Overall=8

5. Lunch found us at the Blue Moon, a little burger joint/bar in downtown Madison. After a tour of the free zoo (go there!), we were all ready to taste the "best burger in Madison." The burgers WERE good, but what we really noticed was the service. It was REALLY B A D! It was not especially kid-friendly (I know, it IS a bar)and the restaurant itself seemed like it needed a good cleaning. A good burger to be sure, but I'd take a worse one for a smile with the service.
A=4, S=2, T=6, V=6, Q=6 Overall=4.8

6. We HAD to visit Daisy Cafe and Cucakery, a specialty coffee and cupcake place! We sampled Blueberry vanilla, coconut chocolate, banana peanut butter, strawberry vanilla, and strawberry chocolate. All were pretty good, but the best by far was the coconut chocolate - very moist and sweet. Sadly, however, the cupcaketress was so depressing. I kind of expect a cupcake shop owner to be cheery and spunky. She was the opposite.
A=6, S=2, T=7, V=6, Q=7 Overall=5.6

7. Our best "find" of the trip was definitely the El Dorado Grill. We just happened to drive by this restaurant - it really doesn't look like much from the outside. We thought we'd give it a try and were very pleasantly surprised! Our waiter was extremely attentive and our food was fabulous! Selections included: grilled lobster, shrimp, and crab enchiladas with black beans and red rice; Bison meatloaf with pino beans and mashed potatoes; Spinach mushroom enchilada with black beans and red rice; Chicken fried steak with pinto beans and mashed potatoes; white corn soup.
If you have the opportunity, I highly recommend this restaurant!
A=8.5, S=9, T=9, Q=8.5, V=7 Overall= 8.4

8. The last stop on our food tour is from our last meal in Madison. The Hubbard Avenue Diner claims to be "famous for pie" and they did not disappoint! After my "Meatloaf of the gods", and our other lunch dishes we sampled some excellent pie. Banana cream, strawberry-rhubarb, lemon meringue, caramel apple, and blueberry - each flavor was wonderful and they had excellent crust as well. The diner itself was very cool - retro in decor - and was packed for a Monday afternoon. This is obviously a local favorite. And they're not lyin about the pie!
A=8, S=7, T=7, V=8, Q=7 Overall=7.4

We were very lucky to find a few gems on our trip to Madison (especially The Sow's Ear and The El Dorado Grill). I hope if you visit, you'll give some of them a try!

Think of Others!

2009-07-02T11:07:00.002-05:00

Selfishness pervades our socitey and it has really been getting to me lately. Even from an early age, I remember rules being in place that were meant to respect others. It took me a while to understand why it was a very strict rule to not run in church. As it was explained, I could run into other people (elderly,etc) and hurt someone else or myself. It would have been more fun to run in church, but respecting others is more important than having fun. Am I wrong?

It seems that many, many, many people around me do not subscribe to the "think of others" philosophy. It continues to discourage me...the lack of respect and concern for other peoples' comfort, welfare, personal space, and ownership. As I've confessed before, I am kind of a stickler for the rules, for fairness, for doing the right thing. I'm reminded of these things as I:

Hear the neighbor kid play his drums in the garage at 10:30pm - where is his concern for others?

Endure night after night of fireworks (not on July 4th) well past our bedtime - these are adults, even...where is the respect for others' time and sleep?

See the things that belong to me (or others) misused or abused - where is the respect for the money that went into these belongings and the REAL owner?

I know and believe that there have to be some left on this planet with concern for others (hopefully, all of you reading out there). Not like concern about "climate change," but simply considering others in our daily choices.

Who is concerned!? Who will stand up to disrespect and selfishness!?!

A Confession

2009-05-22T09:04:00.003-05:00

I feel the need to confess my general bad attitude/dislike. I can't explain why...well, here it is:

Our neighbors have 5 children. I would never choose to subject myself to the chaos that is 5 children, but more power to you if you have it in you. I do not (have it in me, that is). Apparently, neither do my neighbors because the kids run around the neighborhood from after school time until 10pm, completely unsupervised.

Now, according to my husband that is totally normal. It's what he did as a kids. Run all over the neighborhood, go to other kids houses, etc. Not normal for me, as one who is (as far as I know) still not allowed to ride her bike around the block unsupervised.

So, different perspectives breed different responses to the kids next door. I'm trying to be better about sharing our backyard. As long as one of us adults is back there with Maddie, they can come play. They cannot come play if we are not home. They always have to ask first. I'm comfortable with rules in place.

But, last night all the rules were off the table as Maddie invited her "friends" to come in her house. All of the sudden I've got 5 extra kids in my house (see first paragraph). They are running, playing with Maddie's toys, upstairs, downstairs, purple sand is everywhere!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can handle a lot of stress. I can plan an event start to finish, study and give a lesson on the prophets, plan healthy meals and grocery lists, keep the garden watered, do laundry, remodel the bathroom...all in a day's work for me. Why can't I handle these kids?

I don't like them. There, I said it. They have no boundaries, they lie to me (albeit white lies), and they think I'm mean for trying to impose some boundaries of my own. Why can't I feel some compassion for them? They have so little, they have ruined all their nice toys in their own backyard, their mom and dad pay very little attention to them.

But, I can't muster up enough compassion to let them into my world. My world where moms and dads do pay a lot of attention and where we have plenty, even more than we need, and where we have nice toys and clothes and shoes.

I guess when I think about it...it's becuase they are getting rewarded for bad behavior. It offends my very core when rule breakers get a free pass. It's just how I am hard-wired. Of course, I am a rule-breaker myself. Always falling short in a fallen world. But, I'm trying. I can and do respect those who are trying to do the right thing. There is no trying here...there is only wanting and taking.

It's a wrong-wrong situation in my estimation. They are wrong - in their devious plots to overthrow my peaceful world. (Well, maybe not devious). And I am wrong for my attitude, lack of compassion, and failure to be more Christ like in this situation. Who is the adult here, anyway?

5 Phrases I Never Thought I Would Have To Say

2009-01-27T21:45:00.002-06:00

1. Don't bodyslam the cats.

2. Stop eating the diaper cream.

3. Don't drop your bagel into the paint bucket.

4. Why are you naked again?

5. No, you can't have ketchup on your apples.

I said all 5 today.

Review Number 2

2009-01-03T21:35:00.002-06:00

I recently had the opportunity to have a lovely dinner at the Black Swan in Kalamazoo. It was a surprise event for my grandma's 75th birthday, so the occasion was especially special. The results are in...drumroll...

Atmosphere: 8 The dining room was very warm and inviting. There was a fireplace and lots of big windows looking out on the water. There was a rather large, noisy party next to us in a banquet room listening to what I can only describe as "booty music," but the waitress quickly shut their door so we did not have to enjoy that particular selection of music.

Service: 6 Our watiress was very very nice, but incredibly slow. She asked if we wanted to hear the dessert speicial, told us, then didn't come back for 15 minutes! I enjoy a leisurely dinner as much as the next person, but I also have a toddler so leisurely is not really an option.

Quality (food): 9 The ingredients were all fresh and desserts were all made in-house. They even prepared a special dessert in honor of grandma's birthday.

Taste (food): 8.5 I had a salmon dish, which was quite flavorful but overcooked. I was not a huge fan of the whipped potatoes, but they did have good flavor. The appetizers were wonderful and the desserts all fabulous. The chicken fingers and french fries (my toddler's fancy dinner) were excellent as well.

Value: 5 This is another special occasion restaurant. Dinner for two will probably run you $75-80.

Overall rating: 7.3 A traditional special occasion restaurant, the Black Swan will provide you with a lovely meal and pretty good service. Try the Creme Brule...totally amazing!

My First Restaurant Review

2008-12-19T13:21:00.003-06:00

It has always been kind of a secret dream of mine to be a food critic. There is probably not a lot of stability in that line of work (or demand), but what a wonderful job; getting paid to eat and judge.

So, I will test my food critic skills on all of you. For my birthday yesterday, my husband took me to Zazio's in the downtown Kalamazoo Radisson. Italian food is my absolute favorite, so I was very excited about this dinner! Here are the ratings (on a scale of 1-10, 10 being the best):

Atmosphere: 8 The dining room had lots of big windows looking out on the downtown mall and an open kitchen, where you could see a lot of what was going on. Colors were bright and happy. The music (light Christmas jazz) was also nice.

Service: 7 Our hostess took our coats. Our waitress was kind enough to let us have the drink special (even though it was only supposed to apply to those in the lounge).

Quality (food): 10 The ingredients were fresh. Everything is made in-house; pastas, desserts, etc. Our appetizer included fresh vegetables that tasted great.

Taste (food): 10 Becuase of the great quality, these meals tasted excellent! I had a ricotta pasta roll w/fresh forest mushroom and my husband had duck breast w/butternut squash polenta. Both meals were incredible! My dessert (a hazelnut gelato over a chocolate torte) was both unique and delicious.

Value: 4 This is definitely a special occasion, adults only restaurant. Do not come here if you're looking to get a deal. If you like to order the whole 9 yards (drinks, appetizer, entree, dessert) don't be surprised to spend at least $80 on dinner for two.

Overall rating: 7.8 Come to Zazio's for a very special, unique dinner with lots of flavor and fresh, quality ingredients. You won't get a cheap dinner, but you'll get an awesome dining experience!

Praying for the Election

2008-11-04T06:56:00.003-06:00

I have not posted in almost 2 months, mostly because my mind has been consumed with all things political and I just did not want to bog down my blog with the rants you can read anywhere else. It was stressed to me this week how very important it is that we pray for the leaders of this country. As I woke up this morning, I felt a sense of anxiety and fear about how the day will end. In my reading this morning, I came upon this prayer from the site www.desiringgod.org with writings by John Piper. Yesterday he posted this prayrer, which I will repost here. I hope that you will think on this today and even tomorrow as Christians seek to respond to the results of today's election. Oh yeah, and go vote.

A Prayer for the Election
November 3, 2008 | By: John Piper
Category: Commentary

Father in heaven, as we approach this election on Tuesday, I pray

1) that your people will vote,

2) and that they will vote with a sense of thankfulness for a democratic system that at least partially holds in check the folly and evil in all our hearts so that power which corrupts so readily is not given to one group or person too easily;

3) that we would know and live the meaning of

being in the world, but not of it,
doing politics as though not doing them,
being on the earth, yet having our lives hidden with Christ in God,
rendering to Caesar the things that are Caesars, and to God the things that are God’s;
4) that we would discern what truths and values should advance by being made law and which should advance only by the leavening of honest influence;

5) that your people would see what love and justice and far-seeing wisdom demand in regard to the issues of education, business and industry, health care, marriage and family, abortion, welfare, energy, government and taxes, military, terrorism, international relations, and every challenge that we will face in the years to come;

6) and above all, that we will treasure Jesus Christ, and tell everyone of his sovereignty and supremacy over all nations, and that long after America is a footnote to the future world, he will reign with his people from every tribe and tongue and nation.

Keep us faithful to Christ’s all important Word, and may we turn to it every day for light in these dark times.

In Jesus’ name,

Amen.

Seriously, Matt Damon?

2008-09-11T09:55:00.001-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=anxkrm9uEJk

Maybe he should just stick to being pretty.

A Grassroots Movement

2008-08-15T08:11:00.000-05:00

I'm Forgiven

2008-08-01T20:51:00.003-05:00

I was terribly offended once when my BFF didn't sit with me at the lunch table. Life was over, I was rejected, and I was so mad. And then recess came and she found me and life was good again. The next time she chose different lunch table, I didn't doubt her. Our history together, our common bond, assured me of our friendship.

I don't really know what I'm blogging about. All around me lately, it seems, that forgiveness is a foreign word. Assumptions rule; benefits of the doubt are scarce. I long for those playground days when offenses were fleeting and the greatest of my worries was the lunch table situation.

If nothing else, today, I just wanted to say...give them the benefit of the doubt. That friend who you thought gave you a funny look; that family member who didn't follow through with something; that brother or sister whose tongue got the better of him/her. Doesn't your relationship deserve something better? Doesn't that person deserve a second (or third, or fourth)chance?

I've seen the consequences of not forgiving and/or assuming things. The result is bitterness and hard-heartedness. What a waste. Our time on this earth is short and to waste it on those things is not for me.

It's not easy sometimes, I know. For me, I just say in my head..."I'm forgiven, so I must forgive." I hope you'll give it a shot.

Summer Reading List

2008-07-17T19:30:00.005-05:00

Lazy summer days and hot summer nights make me want to chill out with a good book. I have read a lot of good books lately and thought I would share my favorites. Leave a comment with your favorite summer reading material or a good read you've had recently.

In no particular order...

1. The Book of Lost Things - by John Connolly. I don't read a lot of fiction anymore, but I took a chance on this one when I spotted it on the library shelf. I was not disappointed. Grief, loss, love, loyalty, and the end of innocence all in a fantasy world of kings, dwarves, evil wolves, and the like. It's a little dark, but so so good.

2. Watership Down - by Richard Adams. Because I read this book every year. It's not just about rabbits, you know. :)

3. A Tale of Two Cities - by Charles Dickens. I came to love this book (and my #2 book) while in a literature class in college. I was intimidated by the size of it, but determined that I would read it cover to cover just to stick it to old Mr. Dickens. I'll show him. Yeah, Dickens really milks it through the whole novel with his intricate description of any and everything, but the story is a beautiful one of sacrificial love, revenge, and redemption. You really have to push through the first 5 chapters, but it's worth it.

4. Harvest of Hope: Stories of Life-Changing Gifts - by Kay Marshall Strom. This was another book that I took a chance on...it just jumped out at me from the shelf. The true stories of real, life-changing gifts in this book are truly inspiring and reaffirms for me that one person can make a difference.

5. Yarn Harlot: The Secret Life of a Kintter - by Stephanie Pearl-McPhee. True, you probably won't find this book funny if you are not a "hooker," but if you are it is a must read. It's just a bunch of random stories from this authors crazy yarn-obsessed life. A picture of my future, maybe.

6. Potty Train Your Child In Just One Day - by Teri Crane. Well, this is my list after all. It is taking longer than one day, but this was the book I settled on for my potty training guide this summer. She has some really good ideas and her system makes sense. Although to really do it one day, you are supposed to avoid leaving the house for 48 hours. Really?

7. Growing in Faith: A Guide For The Reluctant Christian - by David Yount. I'm not reluctant if you're wondering...well, at least most of the time I'm not. I'm still in the middle of this book, but this author answers some questions about Christianity in very practical way.

8. Mama Always Comes Home - by Karma Wilson. Maddie picked this book out at the library on a Saturday and I love it! It goes through all different kinds of moms (ducks, dogs, etc.) and reasons why they might have to leave their babies for a little while, but as the title explains...Mama always comes home.

9. Fair Tax, the Truth: Answering the Critics - by Neil Boortz. OK I am a talk radio fan. Sue me. Neil Boortz is by far my favorite radio personality and his ideas about the Fair Tax make a lot of sense. He has several other books (Somebody's Gotta Say It being a really good one), but this is his latest and it details the Fair Tax in a relatable way.

10. Cooking Light Weeknight - by Terri Laschober. Cooking Light has been my ultimate guide this summer for cooking healthy meals for our family. I totally surprised some enchilada testers earlier this month when I revealed that they were made with tofu! These recipes are really good, relatively easy, and very good for you.

Well, there is my list. I hope you will share your recommendations with me! Thanks for reading.

Question

2008-06-18T10:04:00.003-05:00

If you have ever used MySpace, you know that people fill out surveys to pass the time. They are filled with questions; some mundane, some serious, some funny. But, one question has come up recently and I have found the few answers that I read fascinating. I thought I would pose this question on my blog and see what other answers I get. You can be silly if you want, but I was kind of thinking of what your gut reaction is. Write it down or remember it and then leave a comment on the blog with your answer. Remember you don't have to sign up with Blogger or anything to leave a comment, just choose annonymous if you want to. Even if you have already answered this question, please comment. I think I'm learning a lot from this exercise!

The question was posed like this:

You meet God.

What is the one question you want to ask?

What's Mine is Mine

2008-06-10T18:13:00.004-05:00

My major frustration of late is my lack of fence and my neighbors' lack of boundaries. The driveway between myself and my neighbor is somewhat shared, but there is certainly no question where their property ends and ours begins, at least in my mind. But, beginning at the end of the fall, we started having problems with the neighbors' kids coming into our backyard to mess around (I suppose they call it playing). At the time it was annoying, to be sure, but we had nothing back there. Then the snow came and it wasn't an issue. NOW...Madelyn has a cute new playhouse, a climb and slide, a wagon, a sandbox, and all sorts of cool outdoor toys. And last Friday was the last day of school.

I have noticed that her sandbox is left open, several of THEIR toys are strewn about our yard, the wrappers from the endless supply of ice cream sandwiches that they seem to eat are in our grass, and (worst of all) Madelyn's toys are scattered about. Stop me if I'm being petty, but THOSE ARE MY THINGS!!!!!!

I am admittedly very bad at sharing. I would even go so far as to say that I have a complex about it. But, I really hate sharing my yard. Am I wrong here? I feel like such a big, ugly ogre when I shoo them away...but at the same time, I don't want them to destroy our yard like they have destroyed their own! I mean these kids have serious boundary issues, right? Is it just me? AM I an ogre, should I just let them play in our yard? Or do I have some solid ground here...parents/grandparents/anyone with a thought on this subject, please comment!

P.S. I have had an estimate for a fence and they will begin installing soon, but that doesn't really ease my fears completely. If they have no boundaries, will a fence stop them? I'll have to buy a padlock.

Words

2008-05-09T23:28:00.004-05:00

Well, I suppose I have to admit that I can't do it all. It has been so long since I have blogged...Dora the Explorer does not inspire any great thoughts.

For some reason, this week I have encountered a lot of words. Sometimes it amazes me, the words that can come out of peoples' mouths, or my own for that matter. We all have our soapboxes and other things we feel strongly about, but can't we just think before we speak? So many words I heard this week were intended to sting, to manipulate, to belittle. None of these words were really directed towards myself (well, maybe a few), but I just seemed to be extra aware of them this week. Even today in a store I was shopping at, a lady was so embarrassed by something that she did that she proceeded to sting a whole gaggle of employees with nasty words on her way to the customer service desk, where I'm sure she attempted to get someone fired.

Words are so powerful. They can encourage, give hope, comfort, a laugh. But, they can also cut deeply. I think God has been illustrating to me just how careful I should be with the words I choose. He gave me this mouth to edify those around me and to praise Him. No matter what ideal I am defending, no matter what the cause.

Do you remember a time when someone said something to you...and you just can't forget it?Something that stung? I do. And everytime I see that person, I think of those words. And I have to remind myself about forgiveness and love and having thick skin. He has never had any idea that he hurt me with his words. I'm going to be careful that no one ever thinks that about me.

Use your words to edify. Use your words to encourage. Use words of hope and strength and truth. Remember that your words have power...use your power for good.

What Is Your Song?

2008-04-10T19:33:00.002-05:00

Music has always been a part of my life. I remember riding in the car and singing at the top of my lungs to whatever tape my mom happened to be playing that day. There were several totally rad "mixed tapes" that we had with all of our very favorite songs. My musical taste is really all over the place...Beatles, Dixie Chicks, musicals, Third Day...really, whatever strikes my mood.

It occured to me this week that I have a favorite song. I've always said I couldn't choose, but this song always brings me out of a bad mood, reminds me of what is important, and gives me peace about my future. What more could you ask of a song? The song is "We Will Dance" and it goes like this...

"Sing a song of celebration, lift up a shout of praise
For the Bridegroom will come, the glorious One
And Oh, we will look on His face, we'll go to a much better place

Dance with all your might, lift up your hands and clap for joy
For the time's drawing near, when He will appear
And Oh, we will stand by His side, a strong pure spotless bride...

And we will dance on streets that are golden
The glorious bride and the great Son of Man
From every tongue and tribe and nation
Will join in the song of the lamb"

If you like this kind of music, grab the version on iTunes by Clay Crosse. It's totally awesome!

What is your song? It always makes you smile or feel confident, or happy. It soothes you or reminds you of something wonderful. What is your song?

I'm It!

2008-03-27T17:29:00.003-05:00

Mary "tagged" me and I have to say that I'm really glad because for days and days I have been trying to find inspiration to blog again. Needless to say, I have been uninspired...I don't know why but I have this feeling that I always have to be profound and deep when I blog. Well, here is a decidedly un-profound and shallow blog. It's about me. The tag's instructions are to list some things about myself. That is, Beki at half my current age. That will put me at 14.

The set up: Freshman in high school, awkwardly tall and thin with the most wretched hair that ever lay on a scalp (p.s. I had bangs, bad ones). A tiny fish in a pretty small pond, looking for my voice.

1. It was my first year (of four) in marching band. I was in the color guard. I grabbed on to the "band world" with both hands and never looked back. It was so much fun and I had the best friends in band. That year we began taking trips to Pizza Hut after the football games. We were asked to leave several times.
2. My first challenge from a teacher...yes, there was one who did not think I was a natural genius. I won't mention her name, but she inspired us girls to joke about "SE moments" and "reflecting." She dared to give me a C on a writing assignment. She was wrong, of course.
3. I played volleyball for my favorite coach of all time, Jen. She was so tough and made me work really hard. I did miss being on the freshman team with my classmates, but I've never been in better shape since then.
4.I was "in love" with a couple of boys that year (besides Johnny Depp). I was way too dorky to have a boyfriend, though. Amber got all the action by the heater in front of the band room. :)
5. I was on student council, I think. Secretary...it's only natural. I'm pretty sure we did not accomplish anything as a student body that year. Other than to survive our first year of high school.
6. I tried out and made a really competitive volleyball travel team that spring/summer. It was so challenging. I hated each practice with every fiber of my being, but I loved to play the matches. It kept me off the streets, anyway.
7. None of us could drive yet, so life was pretty boring. I was tragically uncool, but it didn't really bother me too much. I had great friends and had fun despite my awkward legs and terrible hair.

I will tag Summer (my sister-in-law) and my mom. Anyone else who wants to share what you were like at half your current age, please comment! Maybe next week I'll be inspired once again.

The Other Son

2008-03-09T18:49:00.004-05:00

I like things to be fair. I think we all do. When we don't get just as much as someone else, we kind of feel gipped. That's why I can really identify with the "other son."

Tonight in our bible study, we read the parable of the prodigal son. We were talking about the love of God and what a perfect picture of His great love that this parable illustrates. (This is in Luke 15, if you need a refresher). But, at the end of this parable is a little blurb about the good son. The parable certainly could have ended with the feast, but Jesus thought it important to mention this other son. The one who had always done his work, followed the rules, and stood faithfully with his father. He felt gipped. Here, his irresponsible kid brother blows his inheritance on who knows what, comes back penniless begging for forgiveness, and his father just accepts it. In fact, he throws a huge party and gives the slacker jewelry and new clothes. Just because he came home.

I get where he's coming from. It wasn't really fair.

I think Jesus might be giving us another picture in this story. God's great love and forgiveness aren't really fair. They cover all sin. All of it. The worst you can think of. And Jesus shows us here how to respond when others find God's forgiveness.

The good son complains to his dad. He points out quite correctly that he has never gotten a party, even though he has been so good. The father kind of scolds him, saying...don't you know that your brother was dead? He was lost? And now he is found. We MUST celebrate.

The message for me is...quit bragging. So, this stretch of life was easier for you...Great! I'm willing to bet there will come a time when you will need forgiveness. So, celebrate! We must celebrate with our brothers (and sisters). No matter their sin, no matter their circumstances. God's forgiveness covers all sin.

God's love isn't fair.

Lucky for us.

This Just In...We're All Doomed!!!

2008-02-27T17:51:00.003-06:00

I just finished watching the evening news, which is not something I do on a regular basis. I generally avoid televised news programs altogether (except for The Daily Show) and just get my news on the radio. Tonight, however, Brian Williams ended up on my TV and all I could watch was the first 7 minutes or so.

First up, all about the debate (which I watched b/c it is so fun to watch Hillary drowning in her own lies and rhetoric), but then something truly disturbing. It started out as a report about high gas prices and a woman who skipped buying groceries in order to fill her tank. Next a local pizzeria owner who had to raise prices on his pies because of increased fuel costs. A trucker lamenting that his wages do not increase, but his costs do. A family huddled under blankets after a shot of them turning down the thermostat (he turned it down to 70 BTW. 70!?! I haven't seen that number on my thermostat in ages!) A family leaving the grocery store with one little bag illustrating the "skyrocketing" price of milk, eggs, and bread. After watching that report, no wonder Americans are feeling hopeless. The media keeps telling us how terrible things are, it must be true.

Obama claims to be the candidate of change and hope, and that's a great campaign to run on in this doom and gloom saturated culture. Clinton recently gave a speech completely mocking the hope for the future idea...she said something like...the heavens will open, an angel chorus will sing, everyone will come together and work for the greater good (add heavy sarcasm). So she's running on a campaign of, what? Desperation? Despair?

Needless to say, I won't be watching the evening news again any time soon. Although it does remind me of how much I appreciate the greatness of God. By that mean...

He is greater than high gas prices and economic uncertainty.

He is greater than terrorists and dictators.

He is greater than presidential candidates.

He is greater and bigger than all of those that would have us doomed.

God is bigger than the boogey-man. And Brian Williams. And the evening news.

Free

2008-02-22T21:10:00.002-06:00

"When we have done all the work we were sent to do, we are allowed to shed our bodies, which imprisons our soul like a cocoon encloses the butterfly and when the time is right we can let go of it. Then we will be free of pain, free of fears and free of worries-- free as a beautiful butterfly returning home to God...." Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

Little Nathan is free tonight and safe in Jesus' arms.

Please pray for his parents and family as they must wait a little longer to meet him face to face.

Let us all squeeze our little ones a little tighter tonight.

Nathan's mommy, Jean, writes her story at A Work in Progress.

An Award-Winning Blog

2008-02-22T11:51:00.003-06:00

Thanks to Jean for awarding me the excellence in blogging award! If you have not checked out her excellent blog, please do! Her posts inspire me and make me think. Mary, also and excellent blog winner, has a beautiful spirit and shares it regularly in her writing. Check them both out: A Work in Progress and Sifting Through the Grey.

A Peaceful End To Every Day

2008-02-21T20:38:00.003-06:00

I have rocked Madelyn to sleep since her very first night home. I remember those nights in her room in the dark rocking her, finding her so very fragile and new. She was so tiny, it felt like the slightest wrong move and I'd break her.

Fast-forward to today...she is indestructible, though pretty destructive. She goes and goes from morning to night, always asking questions, talking her little talk, and running at full speed. I'm sure if you have or have had a toddler, you know the kind of relentless energy I'm a witness to.

But, at the end of the day I still rock her to sleep. She finally stops wiggling and running and going. She is so still and peaceful and content. No matter what kind of day it was, it has a happy ending.

How then shall you vote?

2008-02-19T07:40:00.006-06:00

I've been interested in the 2009 presidential race since it began, which seems like forever ago. I love the whole primary season...who's in, who's out, the debates, the drama, waiting to see who is going to mess it all up with something crazy (Howard Dean-style). It's really been the best stuff on TV during the writer's strike.

I don't remember politics being discussed much in my family while I was young. I do, however, remember finding at a young age that my own beliefs and ideas about our country did not really fit in with either major party. In my first "mock" election in middle school I voted for Ross Perot (don't judge me, I was only 11) because I didn't think either of the other two candidates would be good presidents. This election seems to be shaping up the same way for me.

I am not registered in any party, though if I was forced to choose I would call myself a Libertarian. During this primary season I have truly considered candidates from both sides (well, if I'm being honest, I never considered voting for Clinton). It is a very great responsibility to choose our next president and there are so many things to reconcile within yourself and to consider: Who am I? What do I believe about our country? Which issues am I willing to sacrifice in order to vote for a candidate? And for Christians...Where does my faith come into play? Here are my answers...feel free to share yours (though I have a strict "no attacking other commenters" policy, so try to keep it neutral).

I am a follower of Christ, woman, wife, mother, American, military wife, and taxpayer. I believe that America is a nation of great power and great responsibility, that we must be giving and compassionate, that we must protect ourselves, and that many of our governmental agencies need a complete overhaul (most of all , the IRS). There are many issues I am willing to let go of this time around (though I would LOVE to see the fair tax enacted...look for it on the Michigan ballot in November!), but my candidate MUST be strong on the economy and have a plan for an eventual end to the war in Iraq. Faith and politics are tough for me. I know in my heart that America has a very slim chance of ever being a Christian nation. We have become so self-centered and materialistic (as a nation), worshipping our various idols...good thing we're not in OT times or God would send Babylon to teach us a lesson. I don't feel like I can expect the same things from the leader of our country that I should expect from, for example, and elder in the church. I can hope for a president who has integrity, a servant's heart, and a belief in God, but I don't think I can expect it.

If you are a Christian, how do faith and politics mesh for you? For any readers...how do you choose your candidate? Thanks for reading!

Psalms & Hymns & Spiritual Songs...and Coming Back

2008-02-11T07:05:00.000-06:00

Today I wanted to post a piece that I wrote last year. I shared it as a "testimony" of sorts during a worship service last fall. I know that not many of my friends or family even knew about it, so I thought I could share it here.

Also, I am currently struggling with some aspects of worship. I would love to hear any and all thoughts you have about musical worship...what inspires and edifies you, what are your feelings on style of music, what are your thoughts about satisfying the tastes of all ages? I guess I know that I just need encouragement in this area and where better to get it then from all of you. Please leave comments on this subject and on the post that follows (if you are so willing). Thank you all for reading.

Coming Back

I am still getting used to being in God’s service again. I’ve been out of it for a long time. I’ve been in church, I’ve sung the songs, and I’ve heard the sermons, but for the past 7 years (when it came to being a part of the body) I chose to tell God “no.”

At first I excused myself because I couldn’t find a church that really needed me. In 7 years I attended (with varying degrees of regularity) no less than 10 churches. There was always a reason to stop going. When we finally settled in Battle Creek and began coming to CCC, there were new excuses to avoid serving. Over and over God showed me opportunities to use my gifts to glorify him through service. Over and over I said no. “No, God…I work all week and I’m tired when I get home.” Then it was “No, God…I have a new house that needs a lot of work.” “No, God…I’m pregnant and I know you don’t expect me to do anything else right now” “No, God…I have a little baby that needs all my attention” No, no, no.

God was always faithful to me throughout my rebellion. A house, a healthy baby…he even provided a great job for my husband so that I could stay home with our baby. And, eventually, it started to look like all of my excuses were no good anymore. I was down to my last one, the only really. ”No, God…I’m too scared to get involved. I’m scared that I’ll come to love this church and then something will happen and I’ll have to leave it.” You see, I’m the product of a broken church family. And I still feel such a loss and even pain because, well because that’s just what we feel when relationships are fractured. I came to realize that because of this experience I had decided that it was much safer to be a casual church-goer than to really invest myself and my time.

Using the family at CCC and speaking to me through music and scripture, God began to change my heart until I could ignore him no longer. Little by little God gave me the courage and I forced myself to try things…come to a team meeting, make a comment at a team meeting, volunteer to complete a task…and I found that I started to care about the people and the ministries here...and they cared about me too. It was amazing how different I felt saying “yes” to God. Was it actually joy that I was experiencing? Yes, joy in serving…and with each yes God faithfully blessed me. I admit that I am still afraid. Sometimes even the slightest disagreement brings my fears to the surface. Even as I faced my first test in conflict (when there are people, there will be conflicts) my first instinct was just go home and go back to the comfortable life of a pew-warmer. But, through the voice of a wise brother, God gently reminded me that he brought me to this place, that he had a purpose for me here, and that he was not through with me yet.

I thought it was safer to watch from the outside and distance myself from people and ministry. But with each step I take, I find that I feel safer than I ever was on my own. We need each other…to study God’s word together, pray together, serve together, to support one another…we are a family. Trust God, say “yes” to him. Use the gifts he has blessed you with to serve in a ministry. Come to a team meeting and get your feet wet. Be part of a small group. Don’t wait for someone to ask you…God is asking you. Just say “yes.”

Learning As I Go

2008-02-06T08:38:00.000-06:00

Now that I have been a stay-at-home mom for almost 2 years (wow, has it really been that long?) I think I have learned a few things. Some things about babies, a lot about Winnie the Pooh, but mostly about myself. Here's some of what I learned:

1. I don't think I am a typical mom. I was never a "baby person" and, honestly I never really planned on having any kids. Not that Maddie was an accident. I just sort of came around to the idea and really felt an internal urge to have a baby...to have a tangiable, living testament to the love that my hubby and I share. I guess that's just nature. However, easing into the role of mom was not natural for me. It was (and is) something that I have trouble placing in myself. It is certainly not a burden, just something I have to conciously decide to be each day. I'm not a super mom...I feel selfish and guilty all the time because I really want to be able to do my own activities and spend time on my own, but that leaves Maddie without a mom. I don't wake up everyday with a plan of fun, educational activities for us to do together or interesting field trips (boy, I would be a REALLY BAD homeschooler)....which leads me to...

2. I'm not really that fun (for a toddler). I do play with Maddie a lot, but not like her daddy does and not all day. I hate going outside (mostly b/c of our neighbor's kids who have no boundries) and definitely hate going out when it is cold. Maddie loves to be outside. Anytime, any weather. I would be perfectly happy being inside all day sewing, reading, watching TV, surfing the internet, etc. I'm sure she gets frustrated with me. I'm frustrated with myself...and it's not like we never do the things she likes to do, just not as much as we should.

3. I need to be my own person (for both of our sakes). I recently accepted a part time job. It sort of came out of the blue and I did not expect the oppportunity. But, there it was...mine if I wanted it. I thought about it a lot, went through all the feelings of guilt and even sort of a sense of failure. (I can't get it together and be a fun stay-at-home mom and be satisfied with that?) But, this week I really feel like God was giving me an out...here's a flexible, part-time job, here is a safe, trustworthy caregiver for Madelyn, here is a salary you can work with. It's OK you can be you, and you can be a good mom.

It's not the same for everyone. I know lots of moms who only ever wanted to be moms and stay home and raise their babies. That's not me. When I have had a little time being myself (singing w/praise team, hanging w/friends, enjoying having the house to myself) I am so refreshed and have a renewed appreciation for the time I do have with Maddie. It changes my attitude and I am more inclined to be a fun mom. I think this job will help change my attitude more permanently. I hope so.

On a "us vs. them" note...I used to think that the only REAL difficulty in choosing to stay at home was the financial aspect of it. It is big, you have to be willing to sacrifice. But, there is so much more. Things you don't realize until 2 years down the road. At least for this mom. But, all moms are unique.